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Posted By: robin on: 09/3/2009 07:26:55 ET
Subject: RE: My Grandfather's Suicide

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I wanted to do a post of my grandfather's suicide. This was the most transformational event in my life after my mom's shooting. His death changed my life forever. He was the person that I loved most in the world except my mother. He was actually the only blood-related grandparent that I ever had because my mother never knew her mother and I never knew my father. Losing him was devastating to both my mother and me. His death got me out of 2 yrs of atheism or should I say pseudo-atheism as I was more like a religious,spiritual person who was in denial,confused and bitter. His death led me on a spiritual,soul search which got me into believing in God and the metaphysical again,and that eventually led me to believe in Astrology on June 29, 1998. I was a skeptic of Astrology. I actually thought Astrology was B.S. Therefore,my grandfather's death was a spiritual catalyst for me. I wouldn't be an astrologer if it wasn't for his death.

Jan 25, 1998
I used 3:00 PM
His death certificate said that his death was in the afternoon.
Also 3 PM was start of Super Bowl. He committed suicide on the day of the Super Bowl between
Denver Broncos and Green Bay Packers. I was watching in it in the barracks. I was in the US Navy. On that day, I was thinking about him very strongly. I was thinking that he was down because our favorite team,San Francisco 49ers didn't go to the Super Bowl.
I called my mother the next day,and she told me about my grandfather's suicide.
He was suffering from Hepatitis C with cirrhosis of the liver. He was a lifelong alcoholic. He was overwhelmed with stress of taking care of his mother in law who was in her 90's at the time while my stepgrandmother was out of time during work. He is one of the reasons why I don't drink alcoholic beverages. He shared both Moon in Pisces and Saturn oppose Neptune with me. He had Stationary Saturn in Pisces oppose Neptune.

my birthdata:
October 29, 1971

TRANSITS (I included semisquare and sesquiquadrate because they are considered event-oriented aspects in Cosmobiology and Uranian Astrology....besides..the narrower orb,the stronger its influence)

I also included Ceres because it's classified as a dwarf planet along with Pluto,and Eris. Like many astrologers, I still view Pluto as a major planet but I also view Ceres and Eris as as major planets in Astrology. I always felt Ceres was underrated in Astrology. I view astronomers demotion of Pluto and promotion of Ceres resulting in equal status in Astronomy because of Eris' discovery akin to civil rights,equal rights of minorities. That's one of the reasons that I view Eris as planet of civil rights,equal rights,and minorities in general. That might be a controversial view, but well....I believe that Eris rules controversy any way. I feel that it definitely is involved in people not agreeing with each other and having different views that can lead to arguments and even wars..especially if one person believes that he's right and the other person is wrong. Like I pointed out before,it's not only astronomers that disagree with each other on things,it's astrologers too. Therefore, I included both Ceres and Eris as planets in my post.

I included the most distant planets first.

Transiting Eris semisquare my Moon in Pisces on 6th - '01 applying - devastation/disorder/chaos brought into my emotional world/mother,life changing event, stress/conflict involving ideology that leads me sou/spiritual searching beginning my process of moving from being atheist to religious/spiritual which eventually leads leads me to Astrology

Transiting Eris quincunx my Mercury in 3rd - '11 applying - chaos in my life,news that disturbs my equilibrium,life changing event,adjustments involving ideology...moving from being atheist to religious/spiritual which my journey which leads me to Astrology which changes my belief systems

(Eris is no joke! I believe that it's about as transformational,lifechanging,and intense as Pluto and maybe even more so. After all,its more distant than Pluto as well as larger. Therefore, a more metaphysical,transformational,and devastating planet. I don't care what anybody says. Too many life changing,traumatic,and overall important events in my life happened during Eris in transit,solar arc, as well as secondary progression personal points to Eris for me to be skeptical of Eris' influence. Also...When I started believing in Astrology,transiting Eris was biquintile my Virgo Ascendant -'01 which is in affinity with my Chart ruler Mercury biquintile Eris - '06, and so I think that transit indicated changes in my views and becoming openminded about Astrology)

Transiting Pluto conjunct my 4th house ruler Jupiter in Sagittarius in 3rd - '46 applying - transformation/death involving my family as well as my belief systems

Transiting Neptune sextiling my Neptune in Sagittarius in 3rd

Hi, I don`t know if you are still a member og this forrum, but i think you are very brave to post this on the internet. And I want to condolence you for his death.
And good of you to not drink alcohol, I don`t eather, I have seen to much.
ciao Robin

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